Your deafening silence
Chips away at me
Like a pick to ice
Losing more and more of myself
Even on a newly paved road
The rain will wash it away
And create a pothole
Unbeknownst to you
Through the darkness of night
With only the stars as your guide
You will hit it
And it will shake you
Curled up in bed
I shielded my face with my hand
And wept into it
Like a child
I believe I hit it
Tomorrow I will get back on the road
And keep driving forward
Hopefully the thoughts
Which surround me
Of love being just an illusion
Will remain in the pothole
She lay tucked between his arms
Curled upon her favorite plaid quilt
Nestled within the grove of cherry trees
Acres beyond her home
A pleasant breeze stirred the saplings
As they danced over their heads
Blossoms rained down upon them
One slipping perfectly behind her ear
Her beaming grin under the setting sun
Showed her blue eyes more effervescent
Than a harvest moon
“You make me smile…..”
Over the past few weeks I have been nominated for various awards, and am extremely grateful that I was thought of by all of you. Thank you very, very much! I will be taking the time over the next day or so to add those awards to my blog, give out thanks, and place my numerous nominations as well as notify the bloggers involved.
Please bear with me while I get everything sorted out. I’m new to this whole awards program, but I will be a pro in no time!
I don’t know how this works for everyone, but my heart and head are never in sync, or on the same page…..sometimes they aren’t even in the same book! This past week there has been a tug of war going on inside me, and I am stuck in the middle of them. My heart is pleading it’s case and asking for mercy – leniency – and it usually works in most situations. This time though, my head is strong, standing-firm, and I honestly don’t know where it got it’s will-power from.
My heart has always been the controlling factor in every decision I’ve made, and my head would just sit there and shake like a bobble-doll at my decisions. I think it’s tired now……maybe it’s seen enough tears pour forth from it, or maybe it’s exhausted from aching. Whatever the reason, it’s not backing down.
I can literally feel myself being pulled by both of them; my thoughts are jumbled, vision is blurred, and nerves up and down my spine are aching. My heart is racing as if veins have been shut down and blood flow has ceased until the road block up ahead is opened.
Do I choose my head? The one fighting so desperately and begging me to listen to it just this one time, and leave my heart to pick up it’s pieces after?
Or do I choose my heart? The one that has kept me like this my entire life:
And have to listen to my head beating the words, “Dammit woman, I wish you listen to me just once so you don’t have to keep going through this over and over again?!” for the rest of my life.
Or is there a balance somewhere in the middle that will make all of us happy?
I see a day of meditation on the horizon……